Ups and Downs

This week has had its ups and downs for sure.Playing softball this week I seem to have pulled something in my throwing arm on Monday.We won both of those games.Won the championship for that season.But who knows it may have been at work playing wall ball.Work has gotten under my skin this week.With parents being late to pick up there kids.I had 3 games Tuesday and thought I had 2.So I missed the first game completely and got to the field as soon as the 2nd one was starting.I was so mad I could not even begin to focus on playing good.The third game was pointless to even play.It was like pro vs high school no joke.Wednesday was my birthday.It was a great birthday minus a few little parts.2 of my friends had there class sing for me.One them had there whole class make me cards.I got a call from my dad and few text from family and friends.Got like 90 FB wishes.Like 100 or more in person wishes.I wanted to get there early to warm up but no.Parents had to be late again.Good thing I didn't make dinner plans for my own birthday.Played kickball and that made me mad cause the team we played cheated so bad.We came up with the win but it was close.Then I went with few friends to get my free steak dinner.I must say the best part that day was when I walked into the lunchroom at work and one my favorite kids ran to ma and gave me a hug and told me Happy Birthday.Also to when I came back from bathroom his mom and brother had a gift bag for me.Total surprise and cough me off guard and almost made me cry.I love them 2 even though they can be a hand full at times.Thursday I helped a friend pack up her stuff for moving.Friday started off a little slow but when noon got here it went by so quick.I had few things to do and only got one major thing out the way in my time frame.Had to give my friend money to pay for my tag and do it online.

Before I got hair cut

That is the most that I have got cut off in years.

All my card I got for my birthday.<3

My present from 2 my favorite boys at work.

Before kickball

After kickball

Its the memories I hold on to..

Another fun weekend has come and almost gone.Today is a tough day for me.14 years ago today my grandfather passed away.The memories will always stick close to my heart.I miss his hugs,the times we spent together,the Sunday lunches after church and the list goes on.Also today is 5 years that my cousin passed away.He was only here just a short time of like 5months.Such sad thing to see a child pass.It was a weekend spent with friends made for some fun times.I love to try and make new things.I also like to meet new people and make new friends.Which it all happen this weekend.Picture below are the experiments that happen in the kitchen.

Smore Pie

The Good Stuff

Makes a good dish

Dreams....

So the past few days I  have gotten some pretty awesome signs from GOD. Funny that I text a friend last week didn't hear back from her.Not like her but I know she is pretty busy with life itself.From work,school,being mom to a teen,church and being a wife.So yesterday I was told I needed to text her and see how she was doing.Well then come home cook some tater tots and made grilled cheese for dinner. Put in a movie and watched some of it drifted off to sleep for bit.Woke up few times it still on.It was like 11 by then got like hour of sleep.Could not go back to sleep for anything.A friend from church sent me message on FB so we talked for little bit.Then around like 2 I finally fell back to sleep.First dream I have had in a while and it was a good one that came true today but glad the results where not reveled like the dream.So my friend that I have been talking about in my recent blogs found out the sex her first child today.My dream was that she made collage poster with a bunch mutual baby things.We looked at it for hours then she throws a Little Mermaid picture saying IT"S A GIRL!!! What do you know she is having a little girl.:) Can't wait to meet the little bundle of joy.I am so glad she did not make a collage and beat around the bush to tell us.

Pretty Awesome Weekend

Weekends like these I don't want them to end. I must say it was a pretty awesome weekend. Friday night there was a girls sleep over at my church. The Jr and Sr High girls was pretty good turn out.There was like 20 girls there.Some of us played manhunt,apples to apples,football,and soccer.Some did the girly girl things like nails and stuff.We watched the movie Soul Suffer.Then we talked about things we fear and don't expect to happen.That have happen to us or someone we know.Made a list of all kinds of things. Friends committing suicide,drugs and alcohol,divorce,lost of loved ones,rape,cancer,abuse,lost of sight,to lose a leg,terminal illness, list goes on. We tried to put pants on with one arm and put our hair up with one hand.We sang a few songs after that.Some the girls on the puppet team put together a goodbye show for the leader of the puppet team.She will be moving to Texas around Thanksgiving with her family.So at like 4 half us were still awake.So needless to say I did not get much sleep.Sat was our church picnic that lots of people had to get up early for to get ready for.I wanted to go but ended up not going to.I did not have enough sleep to drive to the place where it was.So I was driving home from church and seen a yardsale sign.So I went home to see if the roomie wanted to go with me.So we went to go check it out and was there for while it was like a cheap book store.I got 4 books for 7$ in great condition like brand new.The roomie got 2 books for $3.The books I got ranging from $15-23 in the store brand new.I would say that is a great deal.So then we came home she cooked her some breakfast.We started getting stuff out the garage to make load for the Kidney Foundation to pick up.I got a call from my dad to see if I wanted to join him and my brothers bowling.I told him im like im not sure I am so tired and don't really got the money.He like if you have gas money to get her I will pay.So hung up thought about it for second then like well heck I don't see them often so I will just go.So went and bowled 2 games which I won 1 and they killed me the second game.Then came home tried to take like hour nap before I had to get ready to go out again.Then mean while im on FB and seen that some our friends from church got engaged.So excited he turned 21 yesterday and proposed to his girlfriend on his birthday.Had dinner with my roomie family.We watched the first half of the Gators game which was not good at all.We had bunch random conversations.Then came home and there was no way I could go to sleep there was a bright light from the neighbors party shining in my window.So I went out an joined the party.Played corn hole most of the time.Come in around like 3 when things started dying down.Got up at 9 got ready for church.After church went with few friends to outback to eat lunch.Came home took like hour nap. Got up cleaned my car and some what clean my room and started load clothes.So yes it has been pretty awesome weekend hanging with friends and family.Hanging with family don't happen often.

No my team is better!!

Friends become family

My little brother

That is just so sad..

 I love how I get info on things.Not really cause sometimes it is important things.I revived some sad news today a text from my aunt about a  little boy in my dads neighborhood.So I had to call my older brother tonight and ask if he had heard anything.My dad never called or text me about it.A 12 year old boy hung himself with a belt in the closet last night around 8. It is so sad because I know there was drugs in and out of that home.I am sure the kid felt unloved. There is just something about that neighborhood and the suicides that have happen over the years.I know of at least 4 for sure.3 people that hung there self and one that shot there self.One my really good friends was only 18 and shot him self.That was just 2 years ago.It is so sad to hear these kinds of things.

Was I Just Hard On Myself?

So for yesterday being a Monday not to bad for the most part.

First part of the day.I have been helping a friend in her classroom for few weeks now.Grading papers,cutting stuff,laminating stuff,running errands on campus,helping the kids in class and so on.Plus she is expecting her first little one so anything to help ease some stress.So I cut out some leafs for a center on this cool little machine.Then she wanted her board outside her door decorated fall/Halloween.I looked at it thought it looked pretty good.Then started I could done this that and so on to make it look better.But my friend loved it so that all that matters.Cause some people are so annual when it comes to stuff like that.So I worked on that and idea after idea kept coming in my head.That machine came in handy yesterday it is so cool.She has been sick a lot with the pregnancy.I feel so bad for her.She can only eat up to 8 grams of protein a day.She has PKU which she is missing an enzyme called phenylalanine hydroxylase,which is needed to break down an essential amino acid called phenylalanine.The substance is found in foods that contain protein.She has to drink this formula every morning and night in order for the baby to get the rest of the nutrients it needs.So after the baby is here I told her husband he better have a steak ready.I can't wait to find out what she is having next week we should know.

 Second part the day.After helping her out and fixing her board it was time for me to go to work.I work on campus there in the after school program.So the kids have been on the little rowdy side with this weather.It was not to bad of a day.But it was just one them days where if people said something I had to stop before I spoke thing.The kids have been a little silly.My patience with some them are running thin.I help the first graders with there homework and it is so hard cause they can not focus more than 5 mintues.They work better one on one.Time is a factor when you only have 45 minutes to do it and it takes some them that long to do it.There are 4 first grader boys and there attention is on everything but homework.All 4 boys are very smart boys 2 them I can explain it and they can do it on there own then check to see if there doing it right.The other 2 need little more help cause they love to just say random answers.If I let them just write what ever they think it is there homework would all be wrong.So that part the day was alright.The day went by pretty fast for the most part.

The night was not to great at all.I played 2 softball games and played like crap.That is not like me I am usually on my game on both sides.Not last night my oh my had the worst judgement on the ball in the outfield.I could not hit the ball to get on to save my life.I think I was 1 for 8.Well actually 2 for 8 but that was only do to bad throw.Usually I do good in both and just my bat is a little off.I got hit in the foot by a hard line drive in the first game.That mess hurt my adrenaline was rushing so I played it out.My foot is sore but not broken.Then the second fame we were up by like 10 and they came back to beat us cause like 3 bad throws.We should have won that game.So we lost both games last night cause we were not hitting the ball the first game and second game was errors.I know I could have done a lot better than I did do.Yeah I hit the ball but right to the people.Then the drive home people could not drive.So the road I was on had 2 lanes on the side I was on.I was in the fast lane other car is in the other lane.So we are approaching the light and where it goes from 2 lanes to 4.Then back to 2 lanes.We are going and right at the last second he like oh crap I got to get over.So he cuts in front me I had to slam on breaks.He almost hit the other car in the first turn lane.So he had to get in the first turn lane.So he goes from the far right lane to the inside lane in just split second.People need to make there mind up little quicker than that.

Keys to my life....

I LOVE YOU

It is a simple 3 word phrase.Very easy phrase to say but we don't say it enough to the ones that mean the most to us.The people we love most hurt us the most.It use to be a phrase I used everyday.When a friend tells me they love me it makes me smile and warms my heart.I love my friends and don't know what I would do without them.The ones I miss hearing it from the most are my parents.

FORGIVENESS  

One of the greatest challenges to human nature is the issue of forgiveness.Those who can’t forgive themselves are filled with guilt and despair, and those who won’t forgive others are filled with anger and bitterness.The most miserable people are the people who never let go of their bitterness.It's such simple word but so hard to do when you've been hurt.When you have been hurt like me you would struggle with this as well.But I have learned to forgive those who hurt me.Move past the hurt but they wont let the past go so it makes it hard.So I tend to get hurt every time I turn around.Jesus and my friends are the most amazing keys of my life.

GOD

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.His love is never ending.He is always there you just have to make time.He made a promise.He loves you just as much as he love me.He is my strength.He is the WAY the TRUTH and the LIFE.

PRAYER

Is something we all could use.There are so many things in this world to pray for.A list that could never end.The little kid waiting for a transplant.People fighting cancer.The troops fighting across seas.For the lost people.People looking for jobs.The homeless.The hungry.I need prayer to help me through the tough times.

FRIENDS

Are the greatest blessings that God has put in our life's.They mean more to me than they will ever know.I would do anything for them to help them out if I can.I love them with all my heart.

Cancer Awareness

 I know that OCTOBER is BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH.So many people can wear PINK and know what the CAUSE is for.If you see a PINK RIBBON on a box or bag of food at the store 90% of the people will buy it before one without a RIBBON.I know I would buy the box that had PINK before one without.There are 12 months in a year and BREAST CANCER gets a whole MONTH of AWARENESS.I know people going through a battle with BREAST CANCER right now.I know people that have won the battle with BREAST CANCER.

CANCER is not a word anyone wants to hear.I have been on both sides of the FIGHT.I won my BATTLE with CANCER.I seen many people lose there BATTLE with CANCER.My grandmother being one.:(Over the years I have seen many put up a FIGHT and lose.I have seen a few win.I would like to see EVERYONE beat it.

What about the other 11 months of the year? What about all the other CANCERS out there? Is there a color for all CANCERS?  Is there a day for other CANCERS?

I know many people right now that are FIGHTING to LIVE another DAY because CANCER. Let's help spread Awareness not only for BREAST CANCER but all the other CANCERS.People need to know there are other COLORS to SUPPORT as well other than PINK.I PRAY for all those in a FIGHT with CANCER and all them that have BEAT it.JESUS can make a MIRACLE happen.

I wear a ORANGE AND TEAL bracelets that say HOPE,FAITH,STRENGTH,and COURAGE every day.ORANGE for LEUKEMIA the kind of CANCER I had.TEAL for OVARIAN the kind my grandmother lost her BATTLE too.People ask me all the time why do you have Dolphin Colors.Yes it is but THAT IS NOT WHAT IT STANDS FOR.



This is a list of some the CANCERS RIBBONS COLORS.