This Christmas...

This Christmas is a tough one.Seeing how my car insurance is due the 17th.Doing every little thing I can to make money to be able to pay that and have some what of a Christmas.My list is very short this year seeing how money is super tight.I have helped out with more charity things this year than years before.I have sponsored a child from the salvation army tree.I also sponsored a child from my church.This past weekend I played in a Toys For Tots softball tournament. Our team brought the most toys and won a bat for the team.:) I have another Charity Tournament coming up as well for a little 8year old girl that has cancer.

Christmas is right around the corner..

This time of the year puts a dent in the bank account.But a smile on my face knowing I have touched someone heart.:)Most us struggle as it is to get by.Most of my shopping is done because my list is not all that big this year.The past years it has been a pretty big list.Going over board for my family.But not so much this year.I also sponsor a kid from the salvation army tree at our local ,mall.I started doing this when I was 16.I got $25 from my grandmother once a month and most the time I would not spend it unless I had to get stuff I needed.So that money would go towards a little boy and girl I picked off the tree.This year my budget only allowed me to get one little kid off that tree.I circled that tree like 3 times looking over the things they wanted and needed.Knowing I could only buy for one.I had a few in my hand to pick from.A mother and daughter walked up looking over the tree few times.The girl was about 12 looking for a girl about her age she was so excited about the girl she picked.She was willing to give up what money her mother would spend on her for a few presents to make someone else feel special on  Christmas.:) I have got my best friend hooked as well as in picking a few kids off this tree.Think she has been doing it for like 2 or 3 years now with me. I am sponsoring a kid at my church for an event as well. This will be our second year hosting this event.Last year I sponsored 2 kids from this event.Then a group of us from the church usually raise money for the children home to buy stuff for them.We normally all pitch in about 20 as well.We were unable to do so this year.:( But we had a great meal with them and fellowship.:)I love putting smiles on other peoples face.
 This puts a bigger smile on my face and tears in my eyes.Reading it this morning what this little boy is doing.:)
http://www.theledger.com/article/20111209/NEWS/111209340/0/FRONTPAGE?p=4&tc=pg

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*Jesus Is The Reason For The Season*

What Hurts The Most?

What Hurts The Most?
Yes it is a song but that is not what I am writing about.But some of the lyrics fit into this.I have been hurt so many times in my life by my parents. The ones you would think that would give up there addictions to have a relationship with there kids.

What Hurts The Most?
When someone knows that they have messed up.When they have broken promises.When they have made up so many lies up.When they know they have hurt loved ones.

What Hurts The Most?

When your dad rather drink his life away.When his trust in you has faded.When he ask me a million questions to see my little brother whom I pretty much helped raised.All his lies.All his broken promises.

What Hurts The Most?
When your mother rather spend her life getting high.When she says she don't feel loved.When you have only seen her maybe 4 times in the past 11 years.Not knowing when I will see her next.All her broken promises.All her lies.


What Hurts The Most?
The things my parents put me through.The things that they have said and done.The promises they have made and broken.The lies they have told me.The pain they have put me through.The way they have showed there love by breaking me into little pieces.


The things I have gone through and have faced has only made me a stronger person.Yes plenty of tears have come from my eyes because of my parents.